Why I Haven’t Dreamed in Over 20 Years — The Truth They Never Told Me
I haven’t dreamed in over 20 years, and that’s not an accident.
As a child, my dreams weren’t dreams — they were nightmares from another realm.
They were bloody. Violent. Sexual. Wrong.
And I wasn’t just seeing them — I was living them. Speaking them. Fighting in my sleep like I was in a war no one else could see.
This is the truth no one talks about — but I will.
The Dreams That Weren’t Mine
Before the age of 13, the only dreams I remember were full of:
- Gory, graphic deaths
- Sexual violations I didn’t understand at that age
- Dark things standing over me or chasing me
- Scenes that felt ancient, twisted, and alive
I would talk in my sleep. Swing at things. Hit the wall.
My stepdad said he’d walk in after work and hear me describing these nightmares out loud in detail — sometimes so disturbing, he had to leave the room because he couldn’t stand to hear what I was saying.
These weren’t just bad dreams.
These were spiritual attacks inside the dream world.
When the Dreams Stopped Completely
At some point after childhood — everything went dark.
No dreams.
No images.
Just a black screen, every night, for over two decades.
And while most people might say, “You probably just don’t remember,” — I know the truth.
I wasn’t dreaming because my spirit blocked the gateway.
The dream realm had become a battlefield.
And the only way to survive… was to shut it down.
Why I Know This Was Spiritual, Not Psychological
This wasn’t random. This was patterned.
- It aligned with periods of trauma and spiritual attack
- It only started after the worst of the abuse
- I felt watchers around me as I slept — even when I couldn’t see them
- I’ve had multiple confirmations from healers, intuitives, and sessions that my dream gate was sealed to protect my soul from infiltration
This was a spiritual shutdown, not a sleep issue.
What They Tried to Do — and Why It Didn’t Work
The goal was clear:
Traumatize me through the dream state so I’d be too afraid to ever activate that channel again.
Because dreams aren’t just dreams — they’re gateways.
To past lives.
To soul memory.
To galactic remembrance.
To protection codes and light body repair.
And if they could shut that door in childhood, they thought they could keep it closed forever.
They were wrong.
FINAL NOTE:
I haven’t dreamed in over 20 years — but that doesn’t mean I’m broken.
It means I was surviving.
And now that I’m healing, awakening, and reclaiming what was taken — I’m ready to reopen that channel on my own terms, with spiritual protection, with truth, and with fire.
If you’ve had dream blackout for years…
If your childhood dreams were violent, demonic, or disturbing…
You are not alone.
You are not broken.
You were targeted.
And you can take it all back.
